Before Reagan was born, I kept thinking that it would be easy as I had done the whole baby thing before and because she was another girl, I thought it would be even easier. But I was in for a big surprise... And what I found the hardest of all is the time I missed spending with Mackenzie. She was so good about it though and would just sit around me while I was feeding this new being who had invaded her space, or she would be doing all sorts of things to help me or just be begging to hold her new sister who to my joy she absolutely adored. I attribute that to the fact that she went with us to every doctors appointment, she spoke to her sister all the time through her mommy's big tummy and I told her all the time about what this new baby would be doing all day long! I sat outside this afternoon and filled the big shell with water for them to play in and just watched how they played side by side, not speaking yet communicating in ways I will never understand, and I found myself once again wondering at the pleasure I get from just watching these two daughters of mine.
Mackenzie - 3 weeks old For the past 4 months, all we've been talking about is big school for Mackenzie! And finally the big day has arrived. Tomorrow she'll be getting dressed in her Eunice school uniform and starting the first day of her school career. I am of mixed emotions as I am so proud of her yet I am so sad that my baby is so big already. I remember so clearly the day she was born, it could have been yesterday. I remember looking down at her after she had been bathed and was lying all wrapped up like a little catepillar and wondering how it was possible that I had given birth to this beautiful dainty little scrap of perfection! It was true and she was mine to take home and love and cherish and prepare for the big world she will one day step into. There is a saying that says your children are only lent to you and I cant help thinking that tomorrow she will be taking another step into the unknown, the place where we hope we have given them the tools with which to sur...
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