After spending Friday night hunched over the toilet bowl with a bad case of food poisoning and feeling like death warmed up on Saturday, could the weekend get any worse? Unfortunately it did. Reagan woke up with a very bad cough on Sunday and although she's been coughing on and off for weeks, this was a typical croup cough which she is prone too and my heart just sank. By the time 1 o'clock came, Peter and I decided to take her to the emergency room where we sat until after 4. In that time, she had a chest X-ray which came back worrying wether she had some bronchial infection, then they had to do some blood work which came back negative for an infection but with a recomendation from the doctor that its not serious but please see your peadiatrician and here is a refferal letter for him. Now I ask you, what exactly are you supposed to think when they say "Its not serious but..." Then we came home, had supper, bathed the kids and I eventually fell asleep with Reagan as everytime I put her down she would just cough herself awake. Then Mackenzie drank some water in the middle of the night, choked and started throwing up... And here I sit at 2 in the morning, exhausted and unable to sleep and thinking all the time, I want my Mom, only to realise that I am the Mommy now. I can phone her whenever I want to but just as she is my comfort so too am I comfort for my kids and when I feel like just lying down and curling up into a little ball until everything is right again I realise I can't do that, its up to me to make it right and I know I will move heaven and earth to help my babies. So to all us moms who feel like we just can't anymore, take heart because you can, motherhood brings with it the extra strength to cope because your children will all at some stage be calling out Mommy, please help and you will be answering with here I am, its alright...
Life seems to be passing me by at an alarming rate and I feel like I constantly want to just stop everything so I can savour the moment. My daughters are growing in leaps and bounds and each one has developed their own unique personality. We are fortunate to have moved to the coast and they are loving their new surroundings and thoroughly enjoying the impulsive trips to the beach with their friends. These trips now take ten minutes instead of the ten hours it used to take for a week at the beach. But my reason for writing tonight is the constant worry that all us moms seem to face these days. Our kids are firstly struggling with sensory issues, leaning difficulties, inability to entertain themselves and my two pet peeves, a sense of entitlement and instant gratification. What is going on? Whats happening to our kids today? Why don't they listen? Why do they whine and want to sit watching TV all day? Why do they have no respect for their parents or older people anymore and why has ...
Thank you Julie. Something I needed to hear. Good luck with the girls I hope that no more illness comes over them.
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