What a weekend.

After spending Friday night hunched over the toilet bowl with a bad case of food poisoning and feeling like death warmed up on Saturday, could the weekend get any worse? Unfortunately it did. Reagan woke up with a very bad cough on Sunday and although she's been coughing on and off for weeks, this was a typical croup cough which she is prone too and my heart just sank. By the time 1 o'clock came, Peter and I decided to take her to the emergency room where we sat until after 4. In that time, she had a chest X-ray which came back worrying wether she had some bronchial infection, then they had to do some blood work which came back negative for an infection but with a recomendation from the doctor that its not serious but please see your peadiatrician and here is a refferal letter for him. Now I ask you, what exactly are you supposed to think when they say "Its not serious but..." Then we came home, had supper, bathed the kids and I eventually fell asleep with Reagan as everytime I put her down she would just cough herself awake. Then Mackenzie drank some water in the middle of the night, choked and started throwing up... And here I sit at 2 in the morning, exhausted and unable to sleep and thinking all the time, I want my Mom, only to realise that I am the Mommy now. I can phone her whenever I want to but just as she is my comfort so too am I comfort for my kids and when I feel like just lying down and curling up into a little ball until everything is right again I realise I can't do that, its up to me to make it right and I know I will move heaven and earth to help my babies. So to all us moms who feel like we just can't anymore, take heart because you can, motherhood brings with it the extra strength to cope because your children will all at some stage be calling out Mommy, please help and you will be answering with here I am, its alright...